So I got to college on Thursday, my best friend got here on Friday and my mom and little sister left Saturday and that's when college really started. I had an awesome past days just having orientation and having fun being back with all my friends and going to all the activies. We had a campfire a few nights ago and God really impressed upon me what an amazing year this can be as long as I put my trust and faith in Him :)
Yesterday was our last day before classes started. After church and more orientation we had lunch then me and 4 of my friends drove about an hour away to the mall and had fun there and then Walmart and then by the time we got back it was dinner time and then we got ready for a brother-sister dorm night where we had a photo scavenger hunt! Our dorms were superheros and I had so much fun running around and being..well college kids lol.
Then today came. A day that's been in anticipation, class started!! I had a huge bible content test at 8am! Yeah, and I sat there staring at these question going "I'm sorry, what?!?!". But thankfully it's used to see what we know now and then what we know at the end of the year, but still lol. Then I had theology and then 3 classes of James! It was a long morning to say the least.
So anyways I figured I'd check in with ya'll and give you some pictures :)
So it's 4:45am....yes am lol. I'll be leaving for college in like 2-3 hours and I haven't slept yet. So yeah lol, while I'm still sad about leaving I'm so excited for this new season of life. I think the biggest thing hitting me hard is that I'm just starting to realize I'm growing up lol. Oh well, see ya'll when I get to NY!
I leave for college in 3 days, and to say that I'm not terrified would be a lie. I'm nervous, excited, terrified, overjoyed, and just a mixture of feelings.
I'm growing up, and that's scary in and of itself. I'm about to enter a new season of life and I'm so excited to see what God has in store for me.
Brokenness for me was realizing that I needed out and I needed it fast. I needed to quit relying on myself and turn to Christ. Brokenness for me was realizing that I had hit rock bottom and if I didn't start climbing now I'd lose myself. And the only way out was surrendering to Christ.
Ever felt that way? When just the thought of something makes your stomach turn and makes you feel like you're gonna puke?
I've been feeling like that a lot lately.
Towards the beginning of this summer I started to think about and pray about something that will change my life. I'm going to Word of Life Bible Institute in about 2 weeks from now but in Argentina Word of Life has a bible institute there and they have a bilingual program. It's purpose is to learn a second language while serving on the mission field.
All summer it's just been a prayer, a thought, and rarely a spoken idea except when I was asked about what I wanted to do after my time at WOLBI. But now it's becoming more real. I sent an email to them a few days back and I got a response this morning.They're excited about my interest about being apart of their program.
Now my stomach is in knots. What an amazing opportunity it would be to live in Argentina and learn spanish first hand, all the while being apart of the mission field?!! I would go after my year in New York and my summer ministry up there....
But see, I'm terrified at the thought of being away from home for so long. I'm terrified at the idea of being in a world where I won't understand the language, atleast for the first few months.
So I'm asking you to PRAY. I want only what the Lord wants and if this is what He wants in my life....
Something I am thankful for from this past summer was the time that people invested into my life. The discipleship that I received has changed my life. The biggest thing that stood out to me this summer was who I am in Christ. I feel like over the past few years I've lost who I am exactly. And I felt trapped by my past and my past actions and I felt like that's what defined me. But I was brought to Ephesians 1, and while I still struggle with my identity in Christ I know that to counteract my ungodly thoughts is through scripture. and Ephesians 1:3-14 does just that!
"All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realms because we are united with Christ. 4 Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. 5 God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure. 6 So we praise God for the glorious grace he has poured out on us who belong to his dear Son.[a]7 He is so rich in kindness and grace that he purchased our freedom with the blood of his Son and forgave our sins. 8 He has showered his kindness on us, along with all wisdom and understanding.
9 God has now revealed to us his mysterious plan regarding Christ, a plan to fulfill his own good pleasure. 10 And this is the plan: At the right time he will bring everything together under the authority of Christ—everything in heaven and on earth. 11 Furthermore, because we are united with Christ, we have received an inheritance from God,[b] for he chose us in advance, and he makes everything work out according to his plan.
12 God’s purpose was that we Jews who were the first to trust in Christ would bring praise and glory to God. 13 And now you Gentiles have also heard the truth, the Good News that God saves you. And when you believed in Christ, he identified you as his own[c] by giving you the Holy Spirit, whom he promised long ago. 14 The Spirit is God’s guarantee that he will give us the inheritance he promised and that he has purchased us to be his own people. He did this so we would praise and glorify him."
Just to name a few, I am...
loved,
chosen,
holy,
without fault,
adopted,
purchased,
united with God,
inherited,
and
forgiven.
Wow, if that doesn't give you goosebumps I don't know what will. Every day when I do my quiet time, daily devotions I read Ephesians 1:3-14 outloud. Somedays just once, other days a few times. It's through God's word that I am changing :)
The song below really challenged me this summer and I hope for you it will do the same! :)
